Have you ever wonder why you?

Have you stopped and looked at what's going on around you and asked why me? In the last 3 years I have lost so much, and also gained so much. Everything I lost I really wont with me when I accomplish my dreams. I have been hurt for 4 years, I have been out of work for that long, and it's really bothering me know. Christmas is right around the corner. ugh!!!!